Shabberdabby?

I am not feeling so well today. I feel more sadly than I have in a goodly while. I think what started the sadness was not being able to make my sister feel better. Then I think that devolved into all of my other "troubles".

Today when I was driving home from visiting my sister I had no idea where I was going but I prayed a whole bunch and somehow I ended up here. This is undeniable proof that there is a God.

Also, Freddy brought me into King Chapel after dark and I can confirm that it is haunted. I saw one ghost heard another there is a creaky door and a spooky painting. Also, I decided it must suck to be God. I love churches in the dark. It is one of those times that I believe without question like a child with my whole corny heart that he must exist. I don't know if his existence makes me happier or sadder though. He is just one more reason I can't screw things up yet I always feel like He could make everything better and He just choses not to. I am pretty mad at Him right now and fairly sure He does in fact exist.

But yeah... general woe and sadness. My life is so hard! Freddy just mocks me and says my life cannot be so hard if there are three people who want to make mad passionate love to me. The problem is that the love part seems in my opinion to be missing. But I will not complain further since I am feeling better already from this little amount of complaint and if I do more I might only succeed in convincing myself that I should be sad again.