citrus vodka

What I boil down to is a passionate person who wants people to be as happy as possible as often as possible. There is nothing I want more than to make people happy... not even my happiness. I haven't decided whether this is good or bad or neither. I just know that it is at the very core of who I am.

When I drink enough I stop wondering if I am making people happy and just do things to make them happy. It usually works. It makes me think maybe if I stopped worrying so much I would be a happy people making machine. Maybe I am a mastermind. Maybe I really do understand people after all.

You know when you are drunk you get a floaty feeling. I hold onto that feeling. I can have it whenever I want for a few days after the fact whenever I am relaxing. I am so naturally drunk I wonder what the point of drinking is sometimes. I wonder if people realize when I am drunk that I am only acting how I always want to act. That the alcohol doesn't do much but lower my inhibitions. They have to know that. Right?

Today should be a slow relaxing day and I am feeling rather relaxed myself.