inconsistencies

Sometimes I deal very well with pain. Exceptionally well. Other times not so much. I always considered this some kind of fluke in my personality. Then I began last year some time to realize that the times when I was least deal with pain and stress coincided with my monthly visit from Auntie Flo. So even though I never realized it and I am still getting used to the idea I definitely do have PMS. You might not notice some months because I am not in a whole lot of emotional pain. But when the whole month has been an emotional mess you can expect me to be sensitive and irritable for a little while. I almost cried over girl scout cookies the other day.
So I am trying to drink alot of soy and eat citrus fruits which is sposed to help my estrogen levels which is sposed to help me cope with pain which is good because I am wading in pain right now.
It's nothing that big or that I can't deal with of course. Just painful.
Also I really like this guy Johnny Dewey who we are reading for my class. He believes that the idea of a "whole self" is an imagined ideal. We are really a series of memories of actions of ideas. This is why we can be so inconsistent, I have thought for a while. Why I can be completely one person sometimes and another person at other times. If you think about it... am I really the same person when I am made up of a set of hormones containing low estrogen as when I am made up of a set of hormones containing high estrogen? Tis a puzzlement.
Yeah. And I am sorry I keep missing calls. I want to talk to you Shannon :( Mornings are really good for me. I will try to email you good times to call during the weekend because I think I will be busy in the evenings until then.
I love you guys.